Dream Journaling
I write down my dreams most nights. Here are some of my dreams (and the interpretations) along with a few helpful resources if you'd like to get started.
“I can’t tell what’s real anymore.” — Black Swan
Feb 4 Dream: I was with my cousin Sarah. We were in a gym together and Sarah lifts weights, like she's always been super into fitness and lifting weights. We went to a powerlifting gym class together. I was looking around the room like, hmm, I don't know if I can do this. I thought, "I don't know if I fit in, but I will give it my all and I will do my best. I probably will not be able to lift as much as most of these people, but I'll still try." And there was a guy that came in who was clearly a lifter, but he was a bit overweight. And Sarah yelled out, "oh my gosh, an overweight lifter!" Like she got really excited. I guess it's kind of rare in that community, but she didn't say it as if it was offensive and he did not take it offensive in any way. So I thought that was interesting. And Sarah just seemed very confident and social and talkative, which is not usually how she is. She's usually a little more quieter and serious and reserved.
INTERPRETATION: this one is more about identity, comparison, and reclaiming your own lane than about the gym itself.
1. The setting: the gym + powerlifting class
Gyms in dreams almost always point to effort, discipline, self-building, and proving strength (emotionally, spiritually, or creatively—not just physically).
Powerlifting specifically = raw strength, pressure, performance, and comparison.
It’s not “dance class” energy. It’s “can you carry this much weight?” energy.
So symbolically, you’re in a season where you’re:
- Stepping into something that feels intimidating or not ‘your’ natural arena
- Aware that others may be “stronger,” “ahead,” or more established
- But still choosing: “I’ll show up anyway and give my best.”
That inner dialogue you had in the dream — “I don’t know if I fit in, but I’ll try” — is huge. That’s your awake-life courage voice showing up.
This maps really cleanly onto your music/DJ/creative path and also into social spaces where you’re redefining yourself.
2. Sarah’s presence: the mirror + the old comparison wound
Sarah isn’t just Sarah here. She represents:
- The old comparison dynamic
- The “she’s more in her masculine/drive/discipline” archetype
- The part of you that grew up measuring yourself against her (competition, jealousy, parallel paths, being the two girls, etc.)
She’s confident, social, and at ease in her element (lifting). That suggests:
- Your psyche is showing you: She belongs in her lane. You don’t need to compete there anymore.
- You’re no longer there to beat her—you’re there to coexist without shrinking.
The fact that she’s more open and talkative than in real life is interesting. Dreams often do this to show a softened or integrated version of someone. Less threat. Less tension. More neutral or even friendly energy.
That can mean:
- You’re healing the old rivalry
- Or you’re detaching your identity from hers
3. You in the class: choosing yourself even if you’re “not the strongest”
Your attitude in the dream is honestly the heart of it:
“I probably won’t lift as much, but I’ll still try.”
That’s a massive shift from:
- Proving yourself
- Competing
- Or opting out because you don’t “fit”
Instead, it’s:
- Self-respect
- Self-permission
- Process over performance
This feels like your nervous system learning: I can be in rooms where I’m not the best yet and still belong.
That’s big for:
- Creative careers
- Performing
- New identities (DJ, artist, musician, leader, etc.)
- Any space where you used to feel like you had to “earn” your right to be there
4. The “overweight lifter” + Sarah’s reaction
This part is subtle but powerful.
An “overweight lifter” breaks the stereotype. It’s strength not matching the expected image.
Symbolically:
Strength doesn’t always look how you think it should
Power doesn’t have to be packaged perfectly
Someone can be serious, capable, and legit without fitting the aesthetic
Sarah being excited and not judgmental — and him not being offended — shows:
- A more mature, less competitive, less image-based energy in the space
- A kind of reconciliation between appearance and worth
- And maybe a message for you: You don’t have to look like the “typical” version of success to be strong, valid, or taken seriously.