Ibiza Summer School

Going to Ibiza for ~6 weeks was one of the most challenging things I’ve done so far in life. (NYC & my health issues def rank high) but this time, I’d say moreso internally… here’s a bit of what I had to face.

Felt similar to what I’d imagine doing a 10 meditation retreat is like—although this was much more stretched out. As one of my mentors says, inner work can feel like a grueling tennis match against yourself.

Here's some of what I had to face>

1. My overthinking.

2. My doubts. Questioning myself, my worth.

3. My hyper-independence.

4. Control vs. Surrender.

5. Fear of Failure.

6. Fear of Success.

7. Comparison. Look at other people's paths and wondering if I am way behind or if I can do it too.

8. Jealousy/Insecurities.

9. Loneliness

10. Letting go. Releasing expectations

11. Body Insecurities. Learning to love my body.

12. Romantic struggles. Facing patterns.

13. Trusting God.

Graduation

I walked through a forest of Anthropologie/Free People and woke up to throw a grad party for my little sisters eeeeeee:))))) (AKA I had a dream that I walked through a bunch of Anthro/FP stores and it was awesome). Conveniently borrowed and wore Grace’s Anthro dress for the event. 🤸🏼✨ I’ve hung out with these 2 people since birth, couple of pretty fascinating people. 👑 They (//we) are graduated and off to take over the world!!! Off to Ibiza first cuz that's where my heart says I gotta go to face some things, meet some people and learn a bit more about life.

Rezul the Alien

I drew my new alien friend that is going to help me on this next phase of my journey!! 🤸🏼📟✨ When there’s a shift in life, you often have new helpers on the other side that guide you (11:11!) Some call them “spirit guides” but this term is a bit outdated for me personally.
Anyways, I always forget to ask who is helping me on the other side cuz it feels they shift so often. But I got CLEAR message this is a big important one for this Ibiza rise/ride.
Rezul came in this morning to my awareness and she is fucking dope she has a lot of LGBTQ mixed masc fem energy and is quite the powerful weirdooo so cheers to this next chapter I guess!! 🌈🍒💓❤️✨

Feel free to call upon her yourself if you need her assistance! She’s not just assigned to me!

Glass Breaking

Im really good at pretending to be perfect and holding my sh*t together. Until it all comes boiling up to the surface and explodes in mayhem cuz I kept shoving and shoving parts of me into a closet. eventually that closet bursts open and the situation is 10x worse than it would’ve been. 😆😵‍💫
What was in the moment soooo stressful chaotic and emotional became prob my favorite most memorable night so far in the island…. My whole purse got stolen (passport, credit cards, etc) and so many people helped me. Very glad this happened honestly... Crazy how god/universe works sometimes.